My escape.

I can still remember when i was little, the very first vacation i ever went on, it was a trip to the upper peninsula of Michigan. Driving through the woods, all of the different colored leafs in piles lying next to the towering trees they fell from. The cool air that swept across my face, the fresh air that smelled so calming and crisp. It was the first time that i ever felt completely safe. I felt as if i could walk through the paths the trees made, and get lost in those woods and be the happiest i could ever be in life. It was my very own escape. I remember sitting on a tree stump which stood on top of a hill that overlooked every feeling of peace anyone would ever need.

It was there that i realized if i could just keep going to these places all of the time, i could escape all of the time. It was so different from being at home, where everyone was fighting, i was constantly worried about my mother, who was always depressed, her worries always became mine, even if i was only seven years old. I knew that i wanted to be alone in those woods, where no one could hurt my feelings, where there wouldn't be anyone else's worries to make my own. But the older i got, the farther away that place seemed to be, sometimes it felt almost impossible to reach that place ever again.

I just think it's so amazing how one little place can change your whole outlook on life, weather it be temporary, or permanent. And the older i get, the more places i see, the more people i meet, i start to see that this world is filled with people and places that can make you feel the way i felt that day. I guess what i am trying to say is that no matter how sad i get, no matter how hard things get, even if i feel like i'm at the end of my rope, and just can't handle this "life" anymore, the thought of these people and places, is what keeps me going. I have hurt a lot in my life, seen some horrible things, thought my life would never get better, but as weird as it sounds, i've stumbled across some beautiful places, and people who made me feel like i was on top of the world which in the process made those bad things seem so small.

So when you're on the bottom looking up, trying not to drown in your problems, just remember that every bad thing you go through, one day will be so tiny while your on top looking down, that it's almost worth it.