Scattered pieces of a puzzle.

Every now and then when my mind seems to skim through all of the memories of people and places i have stored away in the back of my mind, i stop and let myself indulge in the moment and it starts to bring me back to these times... Some of them are the best times, some of them are the worse times, but lately, it's taken me back to one memory in particular.


South Carolina

For some reason, i can't seem to get the memory out of my head. It could be because it was the first time where i was alone, really. I Had reasons to be there, but as those reasons seemed to get less, and less important, i started to appreciate what was really around me. As soon as i blocked out everything else, and focused on this pure, rich land, i became to fall in love with my surroundings. It may seem a little crazy, but it was the first time in my life i ever felt like i was supposed to be where i was. I can't explain the feeling that i felt.. It was like the strongest sense of Deja Vu i had ever felt before. These beautiful trees bending through through the streets, that were so alive with old energy, the sweet smell of the air, the ocean swaying back and fourth as the sun set and left the most beautiful colors in the clear sky, breath taking.
There was tall grass, which every time the light breeze would glaze the marash you could see every blade of grass slide against the other, Everywhere you looked, lovers holding hands.


I remember sitting in a Resturant, in the heart of downtown Charleston, and i got this sudden feeling of being in that exact place before. My body filled with chills, and i couldn't believe how real it felt, actually feeling like i've been some place i had never been in my life. I walked through a park afterwords, alone, it had a large water fountain and dipping my feet in, watching the ships in the ocean which was always in view while walking through this beautiful park... I felt like i was retracing my own foot steps, and it was the most calm, and relaxing feeling i had felt in such a long time. It was the first time i was ever alone and still felt so complete, and so peaceful. I felt like i belonged there, i felt like i never wanted to leave. Some of the streets i walked on, were made of red brick, and horse drawn carrages brushed by me, beautiful old buildings everywhere i looked, and the most freindly people i had ever seen before. There were beautiful flowers, and gardens around every corner... The history was screaming so loud through all of this beautiful earth, i couldn't help but take it in and appreciate every single inch of the ground i was walking on. Being there really changed my view on this beautiful earth we live on, and i believe it's there that i grew up a little more, and began to cherish my life, more then i'd ever thought about.


I know it sounds a little silly, but i truly believe that somewhere in another life, i walked those streets before, i touched those flowers with my flesh, and smelled the fresh air with my nose. I Really believe that the reason this amazing place gave me such a peace, and such a calm piece of mind, is because the pieces of my past life started to piece together a memory, one that i couldn't have ever possibly grasped without collecting the pieces of my past that my previous life left scattered around this magnificint world that we live in.


Just thinking about that time in my life, brings me the best peace i could ask for. Sometimes, i feel so sad for not staying, or going back, and i don't really know if maybe one day in the future i will return to that lovely place, or maybe this life holds other things for me... either way, i am happy to be blessed with such a beautiful world to live in.. and I will never forget the long days, and summer nights i spent in this amazing place.

Life is a paper.

I picture life as a huge white sheet of paper, the paper resembles the never ending possibilities this life holds, what can fit on that paper is like the mystery of not knowing how much time we have left. The wrighting that falls onto that paper, is our freewill, we can write anything we want on our paper and it will fall into place, even if the spelling is a bit off or even unreadable.(which could resemble weather or not we have regrets) But the beauty is that what gets written, is in pen there is no eraser, there's only more blank space to write the next sentence even better then the last to make up for what you want to erase, And that could be a good thing sometimes, because sometimes in our life, we wish to erase things a lot, But like our paper, if we go back in time to read over what we wrote, we might be glad that we never erased it after all.

Sometimes we want to put the pen down and not write for awhile, but the problem is, even if we put the pen down, the space will still be lost, if you follow? Sometimes the ink can flow out of the pen so perfectly and the words will fall together like a puzzle you thought you could never solve, and other times you will be so frustrated by the way all these letters tend to scramble on the page, feeling like it's almost impossible to put them together. And other people will come along, you'll notice how much space they take up on your paper, and sometimes you'll want that, other times you will feel like your running out of space for your own writing. Sometimes, they'll make it even harder to find the words to write, makes it even harder for the ink to flow.

Sometimes, there will be people who read your page and place judgement, even though you have no eraser, and couldn't have ever erased the things you don't other people to see, it will always be there, for people to see, and they will read it, and judge you by those mistakes you have made. Sometimes, you will hand your paper to someone else with pride, thinking they will admire you, and you will be suprised by the way they rip your paper in half. There are some people who will change the whole subject of there paper in order to make someone like what they wrote down. But the only way you will ever enjoy your paper, when all the space is faded out, and your pen no longer works, is to never lose your subject, never change your subject and to keep the subject strong through out the paper. Because, when you write, it comes from the heart, and flows through you so purely, and when it comes out on this white empty space, nothing feels better then to let the power of your heart, gather the thoughts from your mind and be SHINE so bright all over this white sheet of paper, i like to call LIFE.

Goodbye sweet summer.

So summer is pretty much over, and i have to say i am going to miss the long beautiful days spent by the pool, the beautiful mornings with absolutely perfect weather. Although, i am happy to be in a state with a warm winter, NO SNOW! The only thing that makes me sad is that i am going to miss the Michigan fall. The one and only thing about Michigan that i love the most is the season of colors! Watching the leaves change colors, and the streets become bright, watching the wind blow around all different shades of nature, as they tumble softly to the ground creating piles of beautiful leafs. And the cider mills, with the sweet smell of apple cider and all the animals preparing for winter. The haunted houses, and decorated homes, the unique costumes you see on Halloween night.. Long walks through the park with the smell of nature swaying through the air. Bright sunshines in the early morning that show the beauty of the season. The cool breeze that hits your face, and the fresh air that brings you peace.



I have to say, i really wish that i was successful enough to own a house in Michigan for the summer and fall seasons, and then live here for Winter and spring! There really is no perfect place for me to be, but if i had the best of both worlds, it would be near perfect for me.





Cheers for the upcoming season!
Hope everyone enjoys the weather, where ever you are.

Amazing women

While i went for a walk this morning, i started to really think about how lucky i am to be a women in todays world. It's hard to believe that not too long ago women were treated horribly, and in some countries, they're still treated that way. Looked down upon, viewed as incapable, and used. Sure, some men in America today still feel that way about women, but the best part of being a women today is that we are allowed to have our own opinion. We are allowed to create things, and we are allowed to shine! Some men hate the fact that we have an opinion, and that we have our own views in life, but at the end of the day we are allowed, and we should never forget that. Always remember that you have these rights, and that you can actually provide a life for yourself on your own. You can work, you can vote, you can have a say in just about anything you want, and that's pretty amazing considering how women used to have it. Sometimes we forget how hard other women in the past worked to make it this way for us today. So in appreciation to these amazing women, here are some interesting facts about amazing women who changed history.



1490 BC Queen Hatshepsut- Crowned herself King.

1200 BC Fu Hao- consort to emperor Wu Ding, she was an esteemed warrior who led military expeditions.

1650 Anne Bradstreet- First published poet in American History.

1678 Elena Lucrezia Cornaro Piscopia- First woman to receive a doctorate. She received this degree in Philosophy at the University of Padua.

1773 Phillis Wheatley- First African-American to publish a book.


1793 Marie Antoinette- was beheaded.


1846 Sarah Bagley- First woman telegrapher.

1849 Elizabeth Blackwell- first US woman to earn her medical degree.


1850 The first women's medical school opened-the Women's Medical College of Pennsylvania

1866 Lucy Hobbs- First woman to graduate from dental school.

1867 Emily Greene Balch- First woman to win the Nobel Peace Prize.

1869 Elizabeth Cady Stanton- First woman to testify before Congress.


1879 Belva Ann Bennett Lockwood- First woman lawyer admitted to appearbefore the US Supreme Court.

1881 Clara Barton- Founded the American Red Cross.

1891 Irene Coit- First woman admitted to Yale University.

1896 Martha Hughes Cannon- first female senator (Utah)

1902 Martha Washington- First woman to appear on a US stamp.

1916 Jeannette Rankin (Montana)- was the first woman elected to Congress.

1932 Amelia Earhart- First woman to fly solo across the Atlantic Ocean.

1933 Minnie D. Craig- First woman elected to be the speaker for a state house of representatives.

1949 Eugenie Anderson- first female US ambassador. She became ambassador to Denmark.

1962 Edith Spurlock Sampson- Sworn in as the first female BlackAmerican judge.

1963 Valentina Vladimirovna Tereshkova- First woman in space.

1978 Harriet Tubman- Became the first African American woman on a US Stamp.

1978 Mary Clarke- First female major general in the US Air Force.

1991 Grace Brewster Murray Hopper- First individual to receive the US Medal of Technology.

Want to look better?

The other day i came across this pretty cool website that will actually let you upload your picture and try hair styles, make up and contacts styles on your face to see what you would look like if you decided to make a change. It's pretty cool because i was looking to lighten my own hair and when i came across that site, it helped me realize i wouldn't look very good as a platinum blonde.




You have to make an account, but it takes no longer than five minutes and it's so worth it because you can keep going back as many times as you want! Most other websites that let you do this charge a pretty good amount of money to do something like that.. So i think it's well worth it to just spend some extra time signing up with them.

After you've signed up, you just type in make-over matic in the search box, and click the link that says make-over-o-matic, and upload your picture and follow the instructions from there. I would suggest using a picture of your hair being in a pony-tale. Once your trying on hair colors and styles, you can chose the "hide hair" option in the bottom right side of the options.

here's the website

Change your hair CLICK Here!

the end of the world this wednessday??

Earlier this morning i was doing some research on the presidential camieghn to see what the latest was, since i have been sort of out of the loop the last few days. I ended up stumbling across some rather interesting information.

This wednessday (September.10th, 2008) a group of scientists at CERN are supposed to turn on a very important machine that is supposed to prove the big bang theory.

My opinion honestly, is that i love science, BUT i think this is so wrong!!!

seriously, WHO CARES if god isn't real, and this world was created by science, let people believe whatever they want, DOES HOW WE GOT HERE EVEN MATTER THAT MUCH, WHEN WE'RE ALL GOING TO DIE ANYWAY?

It makes me very angry to know that there are people out there wasting there entire life trying to make a point. And what if they are so right, and they prove there little point? Then they'll just feel so stupid in the end, for wasting so much of there time, only to realize they wasted so much of there life away, TO FIND OUT THAT WHEN WE DIE we don't go anywhere!!


for my readers, i would like to know your opinion, and any other information you have regarding this post.


HERE IS SOME MORE INFORMATION:

A huge particle accelerator experiment is about to start and a tiny group of people believe it could spell the end of the world. But why are we so obsessed with the possibility of apocalypse?

The world will end. That much is a certainty. But it may not be soon. And in all probability it will not come to a shuddering, fiery, boiling, cataclysmic end on Wednesday this week.

THE LARGE HADRON COLLIDER At Cern on French-Swiss border One of biggest and most expensive experiments in human history Critics say micro black holes could be created, that could swallow the earth Cern says any black holes will evaporate quickly and harmlessly Effects will be less than cosmic ray collisions in atmosphere Collisions could shed light on creation of universe First beam on Wednesday First collision later in year Action ongoing at European Court of Human Rights to stop experiments LHC Kritiks lead opposition 'Big Bang machine' fires up Cern's LHC safety page

That is when the Large Hadron Collider on the Swiss/French border has its first full beam. The collider is a giant particle accelerator which, by smashing one particle into another, will tell us amazing things about the birth of the universe, scientists hope.

But there are a small but significant group of naysayers who worry that the LHC is not 100% safe. Opponents say it cannot be definitively said that in a worst case scenario the collider will not produce micro black holes and dangerous "strangelets".

In this worst case scenario the earth could very well have had its chips.

However, the consensus of physicists is that the collider is perfectly harmless.

But when you see a headline in a newspaper that says "Are we all going to die next Wednesday?", one can't help but wonder at our fascination with the idea of the end of the world.

I'll be waiting on a hot air balloon.

It's absolutely amazing how fast a day goes by, and how fast a day turns into a year, and before we know it your life is almost over. It's almost like being on a ride, and every now and then the ride slows down, and you start to realize the ride doesn't keep going forever, and pretty soon before you know it the ride will be over. Everyone has thought about it, but i don't think that many people realize how serious it is. One day we'll all be gone forever, and to be quite honest, i believe everyone takes this life for granted. Take a look around this world, it can be anything you want it to be, if you think it's too dangerous, or too scary, or you're angry with people in this world, then you'll never be happy. This world does have it's flaws, just like the people who breathe the air on it's surface, but if you really open your eyes and look beyond the people, and the bad things, you will see so many things.

I live for long walks, no matter where it might be, just to step outside of my own life for awhile place myself along the outside for awhile. Seeing children playing, animals running free, the wind wiping through the trees, lovers holding each other and other people just like me living there every day life. Those things make me happy because the spirits of all of those people are so alive and full of positive energy, and if you stop and think about how beautiful it is to just be alive, you'll feel more alive then you ever have.

Sometimes i do get a little scared of death, and what will happen to me when i leave this beautiful place. I do believe in god, though sometimes the thoughts and the fear is still in the back of my head. It's hard to not be sad about leaving this place when you think of all the great wonderful things that you've seen. But something i have realized is that even if what i believe isn't true and i leave this earth only to be disappointed by the fact that there is no heaven, at least i believed in something, because a life of not believing in anything is a very sad thing. Though, it's hard for me to understand how people don't believe in anything. With all of these beautiful miracles and signs, how could you turn your head the other way and pretend like there is an explanation. Don't get me wrong, it's not that i think it's wrong to not believe. I don't think there is any correct way to live your life, or any correct belief that you should follow. To me, as long as you are happy and have no regrets, at the end of your life, you will find your peace before you shut your eyes.