the spider who weaves the perfect web.

Sometimes it's so easy to judge people, so easy, that i do it a lot more then i want to. Infact, i don't ever want to, and i find myself looking down on people, i find myself looking at very capable people who are mothers (capable of being better) and they're just treating there childrean like they mean nothing to them. And it makes me so sick to my stomach, and it's so hard to understand sometimes how there are women out there blessed enough to have such a beautiful gift, and then there are women out there who will never know the love between a mother and a child. Sometimes i think that's so unfair and horrible that i don't realize how judgemental i'm being... It doesn't take much to look at ANYONE and be able to place judgement, i have made enough mistakes, and i'm very far from perfect myself, and i'm sure there are people out there who judge me.. I Just want to know, if there are actually people out there who do not place judgement at all? Is it really possible to see such failures out there and be able to say a prayer for them with out looking at them as if they are so pathetic. If it is possible, i want to achieve it.


Sometimes i really see life as one huge spider web, Everyone is so tangled in a never ending chain of webbing. It just means, that everyone has there own problems, there own mess of some sort, tangled up trying to find a way out.. There are so many people trapped in there web, and can't seem to find the next move to make. I guess, what i'm trying to say is that there are people out there who are so tangled up in there own mess that when it gets to hard, they give up, they never feel the relaxation of being able to move forward, without any work. It's really easy to just decide it's too much work, and stop trying. But is it easier then succeeding? If you really think about it, yeah it's a lot of work to work for the things you want in life, but is it really easier to give up on yourself? When, giving up means constantly untangling your web for the rest of your life? It's a lot to think about, and probably a bit confusing.. but when i think about this tanlged mess i weave sometimes, i think about how easy it is to untagle myself when i just apply myself to the fullest, and then i watch others struggling with everything they have to be where they want to be, and i try to help as much as i can, sometimes i try to help others so much, i forget about my own self. It's hard to remember sometimes, that we are always the creater of our own webs, at the end of the day when we're trapped in our mess, we were the ones who weaved ourselfs in the middle of it.