Artificial.

This is a little depressing, but do you ever wonder how many people you see every day are just pretending to be so happy? Do you ever wonder if everyone stopped pretending to be something they are not, what this world would really be like? I mean think of how many people out there have such wonderful personalities, such unique beauty under the skin, that no one will ever see, because they are terrified to be themselves? It is quite sad when it comes down to how artificial this world really is. There are times when you can meet a bunch of people in one week, and it will seem like they are all the same. When you are in high school it seems like everyone wants the same things, everyone watches the same tv shows, everyone picks the same ideas for projects in classes.. Everyone dresses the same... But what if for one day it didn't matter what anyone thinks, what if for one day, no one cared what people think? Everyone could walk down the street in the clothes that they really want to wear, miss matching or not, no one would care because it wouldn't matter for that day. They could watch the tv shows they want, and enjoy the projects that they uniquely picked the idea for, and no one would think they were weird just because they have a beautiful thing inside that is being different. But i wonder, if nothing mattered, and no one cared, would unique still equal beauty? Would someones creativity still seem beautiful? Would it still stand out? It might not, but at least the smiles would be more genuine. At least there would be less violence in this world, because being different wouldn't be a bad thing anymore. At least some talents that the world may never see, because they are so afraid that it's weird, or too different, could be brought to the surface. Never really thought about it before. It seems too hard, it seems so impossible, but all it takes is a few people to really show how beautiful being different can be, and i know others would soon do the same thing.

insecurity.

There is a world filled with defined beauty, that lies within every person that walks along a journey that we know as life. Along this journey we will find things that will make us really see the beauty that we posses, and along this journey we will also find things that can make that same beauty so hard to see, that it's almost faded away. Once a person feels they posses no beauty, it becomes very though to find that beauty ever again. They will make accomplishments and see bits and pieces of their beauty... And certain times, there unique outlook on there journey, there intelligence, and creativity can make them see more and more. But looking back on the times they felt un-beautiful it can weaken them, and make them fragile. They will do whatever they can do to feel more and more beautiful. And if they are lucky enough to feel this beauty again, and really see it deep inside, they want nothing more then to hold on to it. They gain a self worth, knowing they are worth something... That every person is worth something, and there is someone in this overly crowded world that will think they're worth more then anything. But what happens when they meet a person who they think is worth so much more then anyone else they've ever met?. Expecting the same from this person, they see the most beautiful thing this world has to offer LOVE. And when they love another person, not only is there beauty defined again, but the love has put an even more appealing twist into the beauty.

But what happens when they realize, that this person who can make you feel more beautiful then you have ever felt in your life time, can also completely diminish your worth... Take away all of your beauty, and strip you completely to what feels like nothing? They can tell you that you are not beautiful, and that you aren't worth anything at all.. eventually it starts to become more believable and they start to think it's true. Falling to the bottom, they start to feel worthless, and incompetent . They have taken something so fragile, and crushed it into a million pieces, completely tearing them apart. It then becomes there job to try everything they can to pick up the pieces and put thyself back together, try to find the beauty that has been buried so deep it's starting to feel impossible to find... And all the while they are working so hard to fix everything, someone can come knock it all down again, picking each piece that tearing it apart even more. It's really hard to feel like you're worth anything at all, when the one most important person in your life, who you love with your whole heart, doesn't see it. They never tell you your beautiful, or tell you they care about you. They never go out of there way to make you feel special.

And then what if the same person who has taken your self worth, and destroyed it, starts to suddenly see the beauty that even you can't find... and all those broken pieces start to put themselves back together again. Everything seems to feel like it's falling into place, except you still can't find this beauty inside. Those words still stab you like sharp knives to your chest. What do you do then? How do you find this rich and pure beauty that you want so badly to see?

Beauty.

I watched the clouds hover over the mountains while the sun was preparing to rest, another day gone. I took a moment to breathe in the air and let the wind blow through my hair, and touch my face. I watched passerby's living there life, Saw all the emotions, from smiles to frowns... Started to think about all that i have accomplished in the past year, and felt a smile start to force my lips upward. Sometimes it's as easy as looking around, opening your eyes, opening your mind, and letting all of the negative energy go. Take a deep breathe and really look around.. See the earth, and how beautiful it is, see the smiling people, and how bright there glow is... It can make everything negative seem so small, it's up to you, to hold onto that moment for as long as you can, or to let it pass by.